Getting good grades in College

Beware, the following post is an angry one. Also, it does not apply to all grad students, just enough of them that all students must stay on their toes, and not trust their own skill to help them get into grad school.

I used to be one of those students who assumed that writing an amazing essay was all I needed to get an A on it. Now I must admit I was wrong. If you want an A, it doesn’t matter how hard you work, or who well you write, because it all comes down to a grad student. These grad students will give you pages and pages of instructions for how to write a paper to please them, how to make them happy. Even if you follow these guidelines, it will not be enough. To guarantee an A, or at least the best way to guarantee the best grade you can possibly get with a TA, is to visit them during office hours. Write your essay ahead of time, go to office hours, let them devour it and spit out a paper edited into their own personal preference. Fix your paper to match every bullshit and biased comment, and then hope they will allow you an A.

This is not to say that getting an A without these former steps is impossible, but to guarantee an A, you must write for your TA, not a good paper, not an excellent paper, but an excellent paper according to the person who will grade it. An “A” paper for one TA is a “C-” for another. These papers are in theory an evaluation of your writing skill, but in application they are only as good at your grad student TA decides they are.

Obviously I have been stung, and I am angry. I want my fellow students to learn from my mistake, I have always procrastinated and relied on my on skill as an essay writer, but no more. They say they are improving your writing, and maybe they are, but I believe they are simply making you write like them. I am not like them, I hope I never become them, and I hope that when I become a Professor that I remember this.

Good luck.

19th Century British Literature Essay, written from 12:30a to 4:45am

In order for this paper to make sense, I recommend reading the poem shown below: (the paper is below it)

“We are seven” by William Wordsworth

          A simple child,
          That lightly draws its breath,
          And feels its life in every limb,
          What should it know of death?

          I met a little cottage Girl:
          She was eight years old, she said;
          Her hair was thick with many a curl
          That clustered round her head.

          She had a rustic, woodland air,
          And she was wildly clad:                                    10
          Her eyes were fair, and very fair;
          --Her beauty made me glad.

          "Sisters and brothers, little Maid,
          How many may you be?"
          "How many? Seven in all," she said
          And wondering looked at me.

          "And where are they? I pray you tell."
          She answered, "Seven are we;
          And two of us at Conway dwell,
          And two are gone to sea.                                    20

          "Two of us in the church-yard lie,
          My sister and my brother;
          And, in the church-yard cottage, I
          Dwell near them with my mother."

          "You say that two at Conway dwell,
          And two are gone to sea,
          Yet ye are seven!--I pray you tell,
          Sweet Maid, how this may be."

          Then did the little Maid reply,
          "Seven boys and girls are we;                               30
          Two of us in the church-yard lie,
          Beneath the church-yard tree."

          "You run about, my little Maid,
          Your limbs they are alive;
          If two are in the church-yard laid,
          Then ye are only five."

          "Their graves are green, they may be seen,"
          The little Maid replied,
          "Twelve steps or more from my mother's door,
          And they are side by side.                                  40

          "My stockings there I often knit,
          My kerchief there I hem;
          And there upon the ground I sit,
          And sing a song to them.

          "And often after sunset, Sir,
          When it is light and fair,
          I take my little porringer,
          And eat my supper there.

          "The first that died was sister Jane;
          In bed she moaning lay,                                     50
          Till God released her of her pain;
          And then she went away.

          "So in the church-yard she was laid;
          And, when the grass was dry,
          Together round her grave we played,
          My brother John and I.

          "And when the ground was white with snow,
          And I could run and slide,
          My brother John was forced to go,
          And he lies by her side."                                   60

          "How many are you, then," said I,
          "If they two are in heaven?"
          Quick was the little Maid's reply,
          "O Master! we are seven."

          "But they are dead; those two are dead!
          Their spirits are in heaven!"
          'Twas throwing words away; for still
          The little Maid would have her will,
          And said, "Nay, we are seven!"

Learning Why We are Seven

Self-conscious thought hinders the flow of natural learning. To have a thought and then reflect on it questions the validity of that thought, at least in one’s own mind. The process of learning, thinking about what was learned, evaluating that thought based on one’s own experiences, re-evaluating that thought based on the perceived experiences and judgments of others, and then concluding that thought takes precious time away from being better spent learning more information. This constant thought re-evaluation also takes away from what was learned in the first place. Constantly second guessing one’s ideas causes facts to be perceived as fiction and vice versa. Natural learning and thinking, most commonly absorbed by children, as seen in “We are seven” by William Wordsworth, usually comes from observing nature or by trusting one’s own naturally occurring and unadulterated thoughts.

In the preface to “We are seven,” which shows the differences between wise passiveness and active seeking, Wordsworth ironically wrote of this poem as “shewing . . . the perplexity and obscurity which in childhood attend our notion of death, or rather our utter inability to admit that notion” (p. 391). Even in writing a poem that draws from his own childhood experience with the death of his mother, Wordsworth is unable to recognize the passive method of thought used by a child as anything but an inability to comprehend the self-conscious thought of an adult. Coleridge shares Wordsworth’s assumption of children’s ignorance, as seen in the first stanza (written by Coleridge), “What should [A simple child] know of death?” (ll. 1, 4). The child’s thought process becomes judged before it has even been stated, not only because of her age but because of her wild clothes and rustic demeanor. This assumption that youth and a closer association with nature would invalidate her thought process completely opposes the intellectual notion of the superiority of natural learning.

When asked how many children are in her family, the girl answers seven, including her two siblings lying in the church-yard. The man then repeats the list of the locations of the children, excluding the two deceased, as if correcting the girl’s addition, and then repeats the question, expecting the girl to acknowledge and reiterate his “superior knowledge.” The child’s view on death, instead of being recognized as having been absorbed through wise passiveness, is judged as ignorant through an obvious lack of active seeking. The man sees active seeking as the only method by which to learn from, and therefore forfeits the knowledge the girl bestows upon him regarding the obvious (to her) continued existence of her departed siblings through her memories and love for them. The child’s view of death is similar to that in the Incan religion in which the final death occurs at the moment that the memory of that person dies. To believe that death equates to a sudden non-existence is a forced idea, not a natural one. The child knows that her siblings remain in the ground beside her house, where she can read and sing to them while knitting or eating her supper. The man rejects the existence of the two departed siblings because during his active seeking he has never known them and so for him they do not exist. By denying his instinct for natural thought he fails to acknowledge that the children live on in the heart and mind of the girl and so by insisting on their number being five he disrespects the memory of the deceased.

The man takes his insistence on the girl’s departed siblings being non-existent beyond the simple implementation of the forced seeking of truth and into the complete ignorance of any existence of natural thought. Even an adult, beyond the age of natural learning, would be forgiven for if not expected to continue to acknowledge the existence of a recently deceased sibling if asked such a question as, “Sisters and brothers, little maid, / How many may you be?” (ll. 13-14). The graves of the late children are described as green, meaning that they most likely passed within the previous year. One might stop mentioning a previously living family member after a few years, but to be so ignorant of natural thought as to prod a child to cease acknowledging the existence of such recently departed siblings would be to assert forced, self-conscious thought as the only correct way to think. This in itself proves the fallacy of forced thought, as it leaves no room for natural learning, where as natural learning also leaves room for active seeking of knowledge.

Natural learning, or wise passiveness, is the first method of thought, and for some the only one. Forced learning, or active seeking, should be a supplement to natural learning, as it can fill in the gaps left by a lack of absorption of the lessons taught by experiences, instinctual behavior and inherent thoughts. Active seeking finds only details to be added to the broad knowledge found in primary thought, naturally occurring since birth. As wise passiveness is the first and sometimes only method by which creatures learn, and active seeking is the second, it can only be assumed that the foundation of forced learning stems from the learning that comes naturally. This also goes to say that through the sheer observation of evolution of thought, active seeking cannot occur without first natural thinking, but also that natural thought can easily and most commonly occurs without the assistance of forced thought. Knowledge is a pyramid, with a platform made of natural thought and a vertical ascension of active seeking. Without active seeking the platform grows horizontally, covering a broad array of topics. With active seeking, but lacking the platform of natural thought, the pyramid ceases to be and becomes an unorganized pile of rubble, difficult to sift through and near impossible to decipher. Only with the joining of natural and active thought can a pyramid grow broad and statuesque, encompassing the entire range of methods of thought.  The cultural assumption of the superiority of knowledge found in active seeking serves only to undermine the values and meaning found in wise passiveness, so elusive to adults and so perfectly natural for children.

Pick up lines

Today in Spanish we were instructed to choose a pick up line and translate it. My classmate Sammy thought of the line “Chica, aparece buena. Quiero beber su agua de bañera.” Rough translation:”Girl, you look fine. I want to drink your bathwater.” To this she would reply “Tengo sed tambien mi amor” “I am thirsty too my love” I am unclear as to how he thought of this, and frankly I was a little afraid to ask.

Pick up lines are a lazy man’s idea of romance. These lines are ideally used on seemingly seducible people with the intention of getting them to drop their drawers and get it on. These lines are especially used in America, the land of nicknames, fast food, and text messaging. We don’t have time to speak, get to know each other,  or learn each others names. We want sex and we want it now.

When I was thirteen I went to my dad’s friend’s college party (he lived in family housing). Being quite tall for my age, I was mistaken for a college student and offered to smoke a joint with a cross-faded man sporting an intimidating fro. During his inebriated attempts to win my affection he began to use lines on me from the song being played. This is the worst kind of pick up line. Not only unoriginal, but horribly obviously so, as I could hear the song as well. Obviously, the use of pick up lines can be dangerous, as a complete lack of communication could result in a 26 year old hitting on a 13 year old in front of her father.

Beware of pick up lines friend. Try having a conversation, you might learn something helpful. She might be 13, a never nude, or have several STDS.  One conversation before sex could save you from prison, chafing or a lifetime of painful genitals.

Spanish Class – fun with learning

First off, I apologize for my shitty Spanish.  This was a random activity that I turned into a story, and since I didn’t get to read it to anybody, you get to read it. It’s a little random because I was supposed to use certain words: güerita, flaca, nalgas, tramposa y alucinar

Una güerita flaca deseó para una cintura más chiquita. La güerita tambien deseó para nalgas muy bonitas. De repente una hada aparecé y digo que la güerita esta una tramposa y nunca va a estar buena. La güerita fui a el doctor para medicina porque nada mas quiere alucinar.

Rough translation: A skinny blondie wished for a smaller waist. The blondie also wished for a beautiful ass. Suddenly a fairy appeared and said that the blondie was a tramp and would never look good. The blondie went to the doctor for medicine because she doesn’t want to hallucinate anymore.

Random, I know. Again, limited Spanish vocabulary.

Train ride after a 420 session

I think about insanity. Insanity is the unknown of the mind. The universe of the planet. When I close my eyes and bury my face there should be nothing to see. Where there is no light, there is no vision, or so I am told. Things are seen though, shapes appear and creatures loom. I was afraid to cover my eyes, afraid to imagine what would be waiting for me there. My door had to be cracked or I would imagine them looking at me and waiting for me to come out from under my blanket. My feet tucked in to keep what lies under the bed from taking me in.
Nothing has changed. I suppress my imagination to keep fear from enveloping my thoughts. I know that something watches me but I resist my reason, my own personal logic, and I call upon the knowledge bestowed upon me by experience and talkative elders. I resist my madness and look towards the reason of others.
I feel that I am not alone in this. I am actually quite sure that what makes us different is our reaction to our own insanity. Some feel madness is a curse and a burden. These people live in matching houses, one after another. To be a clone, a sheep, one suppresses instinct and feeling to become a carbon copy. A duplicate of something that has no original, only multiple duplicates who believe that if they live together in their matching houses that people will believe that they are the original. The nuclear family is a modern phenomenon. Mom, Dad, kid, kid.

Unfinished thought… my computer died.